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2010 was a shitty, shitty year. That's putting it in terms so mild, that I almost think I should not even bother with any attempts to describe how bad it was. To be totally honest, I don't hold a lot of high hope for 2011, not because I'm overly pessimistic given all that happened this past year (and, really the last two years leading up to it), but because I am fully aware that I'm just beginning to understand how something so fundamental to who I am--who I was--is never going to be right again. Is never going to be again .
On the surface, I'm heading into the new year with my life more or less back to a sense of [a newly defined, but nevertheless identifiable] normalcy. Only people who know me really, really well--and even maybe not all of them--would realize this is an indication that I'm role playing in a tightly established set of controlled circumstances. A closed perimeter life to make it emotionally manageable, once again, but now shaped for a different purpose. Last/past year(s) it was about sustaining. Now it's about surviving.
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One thing I do know: I can dance again for the sheer joy of expressing my enjoyment of the music--my own, unadulterated joy, not otherwise instigated by or for another person. Music--in the various forms that it came to and stayed with me this past year--saved my sanity and it's good to be able to show appreciation for that in the best way I know how.
These two are not only the kid's two favorite video performances by the band, but among his top five overall videos for quite some time now. To say he rocks out to them is another understatement of the year.
Wanderlust King (live) - Gogol Bordello
Immigraniada (We Comin' Rougher) - Gogol Bordello
* Update: Sometimes I like to get a little ahead of myself...
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